reclaiming what was mine

i've resurrected this relic of a blog. i waffled on it for the past year; always backed with encouragement from friends. and so after a lot of thinking about what i really want out of this thing, here i am. this time, it's all on my terms.

no ads. no "i love this blah blah bag". no stressing about making sure i have at least 3 posts for the week.

this site was my creative outlet and i want it back. 

i started this thing back in 2008, and over time it was manipulated and warped until it was no longer fun. i hated the networking events. i despised what i saw happening around me. authenticity was dead. associating myself with the word "blogger" made me cringe. personally, i became severely self conscious. and ridiculous enough as it was, i felt so much guilt for not posting often enough. FUCK THAT NOISE.

what i miss is the friendships i made. real, honest friendships. the incredible people i had met who inspired me to try harder at anything that was worth a damn. so many opportunities were presented as a result of blogging. i learned that i loved retail marketing, social media and partnerships. and blogging really had its fun moments - some of my best experiences. i don't want to give that up.

and so with my return, i have confidently decided my goal with this little blog of mine. i'll post when i want. i'll post what i want. i want to feel inspired. and hopefully, i inspire you too. get ready to see aspirational sartorial imagery, features about products i sincerely love, the occasional outfit post, music, tattoos, motorcycles and whatever else gets me excited.

if you're into this, thank you. i'm excited to have your support. so there you have it. here's to the new GOING WEST...

prayer of salvation

all photos by alessia ellis

i've fallen in love with california. san francisco is home, and joshua tree is my love affair. everyone has an escape - mine is the desert. when i stay in the high desert, it's a spiritual cleansing. truly, it is. and every few months, i'm ready to return. so when a friend offered up the opportunity to stay at a house in joshua tree recently, i was there.

photo 1 (above): our front yard. seriously.

photo 2: hoof & the horn is my favorite shop to visit when i'm in the area. i manage to pick up a little something every visit, from harley davidson belt buckles to southwestern blankets. it's a gem.

photo 3: the end. a shop owned by a costume stylist from LA. the art is perfection, let alone the unique jewelry and clothing.

photo 4: i finally visited salvation mountain - a week after leonard knight's death. this folk art installation was his tribute to The Divine and scripture. take it as you will. it's a powerful landmark filled with energy, passion, hope, and love. 

photo 5: leonard slept in a small trailer in the parking lot of salvation mountain. it was simple, just as i imagine he lived his life. 

photo 6: just near salvation mountain was a natural hotspring, where alessia and i relaxed with chuck while he floated in the water, taking moments sitting next to me to rest and drink water. he told alessia to put down her camera - as no camera would be able to capture the moment she was about to have in that water. he promised it would lift away her sins. it was just us and this fascinating, peaceful man in this hotspring; all while 50+ people were milling about less than 50 yards from us, unaware of this tiny oasis.

take me back.